Love over Fear

What's good everybody?! It's been a minute. I've been settling into my new home, which is why i've been quiet, but decided it was time to make some time to share a lesson I recently learned with all of you. Hope it helps

I was presented with the opportunity to move from CT to Cape Cod last fall, and I did literally everything in my power to fight it. Immediately turned it down, and continued to turn it down for about three months. I fought so hard against it all because I was driven by fear.

"What if I move and I cant be successful? What if i cant make a living by teaching yoga out there? What if I move and we break up? What if I cant make friends and I'm entirely dependent on my boyfriend? Who lives in Cape Cod anyway? I wont fit in there." Those are just a few examples of the fear based thoughts I had during those months.

Sure, I explored a few studios out there, and had a few positive thoughts on it, but the effort was totally half-assed. I was entirely controlled by fear. I didnt think of the other side of the coin.

I forgot that I am in control of my life.

I forgot the power of love (so cheesy- I know. But so fucking true).

What came from all the negative thinking? My biggest fear, that's what. I got dumped, and that was the wake up call I needed. I saw that I was giving my power away by only considering the negative outcomes, and because of that, I called in the biggest negative outcome of all. Cause here's the thing people: the law of attraction is very real. Energy doesn't lie, and that not some hippy dippy bullshit, that's SCIENCE.

It was the deep self reflection that I went through during heart break that woke me back up. I realized that by acting out of fear, by only seeing what could go wrong, I made my reality full of negative outcomes. My fear of losing my relationship became a reality. All I kept saying was that I wasn't going to Cape Cod, and the universe was like "well, she doesn't want to go to Cape Cod so we won't let her go to Cape Cod." Cue break up.

So, after waking up, I started shifting my thoughts around. I started believing that everything was coming together. I started visualizing what I wanted: A life filled with love, abundance, the ocean, a garden full of herbs to use for food and medicine. Living really close to a place that I can take Blue off leash all the time. Being able to support myself financially through teaching yoga and working in other holistic healing modalities.

And what do ya know? I'm back with my partner, happily living on Cape Cod. Im teaching seven times a week (eight starting next week), doing an apprenticeship with an herbalist down the road from my apartment, working part time at an eco-boutique with plants and crystals and local artists galore. I can walk to the beach, and there are two off leash spots for Blue 5 minutes away from my house. I'm not exactly where I want to be; I'm not supporting myself financially the way I would like just yet. I'm not necessarily too psyched to work in retail part time, and I dont have my own garden yet either. My apartment is being renovated and I dont have floors or a kitchen and I'm living out of boxes. But, none of that matters. What matters it the lesson the universe offered me. That we are in control, always (for the most part- obviously there are things we cant control). We always have a choice, and its up to us to keep ourselves accountable for the perspective we choose to have.

So, let this be a reminder for you, because this is something you know already. We have all we need to know within us, but, sometimes, a reminder from a friend, or a brutal wake up call from the universe, is exactly what we need to wake back up.

If you take my words to heart and decide to reflect, please remember to do so not with judgment or negativity, but rather curiosity and compassion.

Remember, love over fear. Always.

Thank you for being here,

Janelle